{"id":2876,"date":"2005-09-28T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2005-09-28T06:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/fromutopia.com\/?p=2876"},"modified":"2025-03-04T10:52:27","modified_gmt":"2025-03-04T18:52:27","slug":"a-peek-inside-my-brain","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/a-peek-inside-my-brain\/","title":{"rendered":"A peek inside my brain"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Holy crap. I leave for Ragdale so soon. It was so far off but now I&#8217;m leaving in&#8230;like&#8230;fuck. WHEN am I leaving?<br \/>NYFA NYFA NYFA. Deadline is October 3rd.<br \/>Application materials are en route via FedEx. I rock with the organization and punctuality.<br \/>Should I check the tracking number? Not there yet.<br \/>How about now?<br \/>Now?<br \/>Is it there yet?<br \/>How about now?<br \/>Crap. It&#8217;s there. Results won&#8217;t be out until April, but maybe they&#8217;re looking at my work sample now anyway?<br \/>Do they like it?<br \/>Do they like me?<br \/>Why don&#8217;t they like me?<br \/>Or maybe they do like me.<br \/>Cookie. Damnit, I want a cookie.<br \/>Will there be cookies at Ragdale? What if I spend all of my time there eating and knitting and don&#8217;t get any writing done? <br \/>What if four weeks at Ragdale makes me fat?<br \/>Does this blog entry make me look fat?<br \/>Elliott Smith. Elliott Elliott Smith.<br \/>FedEx pak containing (goddamnmothereffing) draft five was signed for by Dream Agent&#8217;s receptionist at 3:15. Does Dream Agent know it&#8217;s there yet? Is she reading it?<br \/>How about now?<br \/>Is it on her desk? In her bag? Will she stay up late tonight reading it and thinking that I&#8217;m an extraordinary genius?<br \/>Or a rather mediocre little girl with funny hair?<br \/>Does she like it?<br \/>Does she like me?<br \/>I need a cookie.<br \/>What&#8217;s Billy doing right now? I bet he&#8217;s eating a cookie.<br \/>What if I&#8217;m at Ragdale and I run out of yarn?<br \/>What if I&#8217;m at Ragdale and I run out of ideas?<br \/>What time is it? Should I eat a cookie?<br \/>Well&#8230;I am going to the gym tonight, so&#8230;<br \/>I don&#8217;t want to go to the gym tonight.<br \/>Oscar Oscar Oscar Oscar aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!<br \/>Cookie? Cookie.<br \/>Is she reading the manuscript NOW?<br \/>Or now?<br \/>Or now?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Holy crap. I leave for Ragdale so soon. It was so far off but now I&#8217;m leaving in&#8230;like&#8230;fuck. WHEN am I leaving?NYFA NYFA NYFA. Deadline is October 3rd.Application materials are en route via FedEx. I rock with the organization and &hellip;<\/p>\n<p class=\"read-more\"> <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/a-peek-inside-my-brain\/\"> <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">A peek inside my brain<\/span> Read More &raquo;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2876","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2876","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2876"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2876\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8449,"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2876\/revisions\/8449"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2876"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2876"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cariluna.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2876"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}